Well time passed kinda quick and kinda slow at the same time , sometimes it felt like we were the only two people in the world. I knew in my heart that God had made him for me , and I was made only for him. The reason I was put on this miserable planet was to belong to him. We decided that he should move in and stay with us for a while. We had been together a month at this point , so one night we were all sitting around playing a game of cards and we were talking about getting me a promise ring and then he said Hell , why don't we just get married? I thought he was joking , but the look in his eyes was amazing he starring at me so hard that I could feel his gaze touch my soul. So we decided that we would get married at the first of the year. So i impatiently waited til the dawn of 2008. And so the day finally arrived and I awoke so early that it amazed everyone around me. I did my hair and make up and changed clothes about 36 times before i decided on a black on black outfit. And we bounced off to the court house. Two hours later I was his wife , i couldn't believe it i finally belonged to him and he to me , we were us.

So now as time progresses so shall my story....

Chapter Four
For the Love of James


He was so stunning in his jeans and black shirt. I chose to wear jeans and a shirt too. So in a weird way we matched. i seen him and i giggled to myself , i couldn't help but giggle to myself everytime i seen him or heard his voice. i didn't want to ever leave his side , i had moved to another town and he came to help me move some stuff. We loaded up the Malibu and headed for my cousin's house and talked the whole way there , i couldn't help myself i had to keep my eyes on him , but before i knew it , we were there and the car was in park. We unloaded my stuff and settled in , yes he agreed to stay the weekend. We hung out for a while and talked til dawn. We finally decided to lay down and get some sleep. Finally I was in his arms , and it felt like heaven. He kissed my neck , and i felt a cold shiver down my spine. And i felt him squeeze me. and he turned me over and kissed me so deeply i could feel it in the souls of my feet. And we made the most passionate love that any girl could hope for.and he held me all night long. I could wait to wake up in his sexy arms. I never wanted this night to end.

And then he crashed into my life , he was an angel if i'd ever seen one. he was tall , olive skinned , with the most beautiful green eyes i'd ever seen in my life. Bryant was every definition of the word sexy. He smiled and i melted , yes i know being so attracted to someone instantly in dangerous. But i longed for his touch. I only wanted to feel his strong warm embrace. Ah the feel of his arms holding me close to him and his firm sexy chest , i could feel my heart pounding so hard i thought it would beat right out of my chest. He came and went so quickly it was like a hurricane had hit my life and i thought i'd never recover from it.

Time went by quickly when all of a sudden i found a friend in a strangers voice. His voice was deep and it sounded like a roll of thunder in my ear , it made my heart skip a beat. I knew then that all i wanted was to belong to him. I had never seen him and all i had to go on was a couple amazing daily conversations , but never the less i knew i wanted to be closer to him. I wanted to know everything i could about him , about James.

The weekend came i had made plans early that week to go stay with my cousin in Mobile. So i decided that this would be the time i came to meet him. i called his cell phone after having lunch with my Aunt and cousin , and asked him where he was and to my surprise he was at a store that i was headed to , I asked him if he wanted to meet me and talk for a bit and he agreed. My heart pounded as i waited for the phone to ring and give him the description of my cousin's car. Just then i heard a small chiming sound..." answer it" i said to Crystal!

"Hello , Hold on," She said. "Hey , where you at?" I said.

"Comming out of the store" He said

"Look for a redish SUV with a green hood." I giggled

" are you wearing pink?'

"yes , OK so come on over."

I looked at him and my heart stopped , he was so sexy , even though he was them same height as me , five foot three , he had dark brown hair , deep chocolate brown eyes that made me as giddy as i school girl.

He was quiet. i talked mostly to his company. , which included his cousin Wayne(which i'd known for 3 years) , his cousin Raymond , And his brother Charlie.

The time passed by so quickly , i longed to stay with him and get to know him.

We finally had to go and i asked if he planned to call me later that day seeing as i had a meeting to attend he agreed to call around 6 pm.

My mind went crazy as each moment passed. it was already 5:30 before i knew it and i could feel this aching in the pit of my stomach , call already i thought to myself. And no sooner than the thought had left my mind the phone rang dragging me quickly back to reality.

i answered it , ah , yes it was him , his deep sexy voice soothed over me like a warm ray of sunshine. "what are you doing this weekend?" the deep voiced Angel said.

"Umm , well i hadn't planned anything , Why?

"Just wondering if you like to hang out or something?"

"Well if you can make it to where i live , there is a swim hole here , i think you'd like it."

"ok , sounds fun. How about this Friday?"

"Friday? Ok , See you then."

He called me everyday , i often found myself waiting for his calls , longing to here the voice i'd come to adore. Friday finally came i was up at about 10am. I cleaned the house , showered and head off to do my make up , when i heard the phone ringing , i ran to answer it , half knowing who i would find on the other end. I picked it up and answered it , to my surprise it was him saying he would be here about 3 pm. So i counted the minutes away until i could see him again. Three pm came slowly. I wondered what i would wear? Shorts , ummm no. See i wasn't the typicaly southern girl , i wasn't 5'6 , 125 pounds , tan , blonde hair and Well i did have blue eyes , but never the less i was happy at this moment , I was 280 pounds , with pale skin , black hair and yes i had some nice blue eyes. I wondered what he would think if i wore shorts , i mean it was hot and we were going swimming but i wasn't about to put on a bathing suit , so i opted for a tshirt and shorts dreading the looks i would get. But I decided it anyways. Well the time rolled around and he finally made it to where i was. He pulled up in his old beat up 1981 Chevy Malibu. when he stepped out he was amazingly sexy. He was wearing black and red trunks , with a matching shirt (which he had unbuttoned) sneakers and i noticed he had gotten a haircut. Stunning! He was beautiful. We had my mother drop us off at the swim hole. I tried to convince him to come in to where i was , but he alerted me to the fact that the water was cold and he wasn't getting in too deep , i was only chest high , but my pleads went unheard. I wanted to see what it was like to be held by him. I had loved before once , or atleast i thought it was love. but it seemed that i was only confused because i hadn't felt like this about anyone before.

i had only been to mcintosh once or twice in my life , and i really didn't like the idea of leaving my life in saraland to come live in the middle of nowhere. I had alot going for me in my life and leaving would be painful , i couldn't be the person i had been for the past three years if i left the life i was settled into.

The day came , i had packed everthing i owned except the clothes on my back. I grabbed my dog and got in the car , and we bega the hour drive away from everthing i knew and wanted.

The house was old and musty. Declaring the truth of how unlived in it was. I chose my room and began the ritual i had dreaded. unpacking , setting up and settling in. The town was busy yet still. People could tell i wasn't from here , i was pale blue eyed with light brown hair , i stood out in comparrison to the olive skined , dark eyed people that surrounded me. Time passed slowly here. I was misserable. I began to think i was going to be stuck here unhappy and lonely forever.

I wante to run away from this place. i hated it here. And i really didn't know anyone. So i decided to try my best to fit in. Little did i know that i was going to fail horribly.